Valentine’s Day vanishes

created on Feb 12, ‵09

Can you remember the day, in your childhood, when you lost the ability to play? The day it hit you that Huggums was just a doll, and that she didn’t actually have the ability to feel. That’s sort of what happened to me with regards to Valentine’s Day. One day, a couple of years ago, I woke up and that was it.
It’s funny, I used to be a hopeless romantic! I would wake up on Valentine’s Day with butterflies in my stomach. Like many girls, I really wanted my boyfriend to send me red carnations during homeroom. It was a public declaration of his love for me, and I loved it every time. I looked forward to being swept off my feet, and treated like a princess. I wanted the candlelit dinner, the heart-shaped pendant, the sexy lingerie, I longed for it All. Here’s the thing though, I’m a purist. I don’t want it, unless he wants to give it to me. I don’t want the obligatory flowers, or the forced sentiments written on an old card. I don’t want a last minute gift that was a pressure purchase. I’m over it, in the best way possible. These days, the perfect night for me would be ordering chinese, watching TV with my family, sipping a Latte, and enjoying the 2 Godiva chocolates that I bought for myself. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a Valentine hater. I’ve just lost the ability to appreciate it. If you still have it, you should enjoy every minute of it! Believe me, nothing made me more sad than the day when Huggums became “just a doll”. Once upon a time, she was as real to me as the love and passion expressed on Valentine’s day. Now, stop your crying and go out and enjoy your youth… before you become one of the desensitized women who walk the earth in sweats on Valentine’s day.

Dinner Date for February 14th